Reunion dinner!

Finally, the day has come
during Chinese New Year eve
everyone has to eat reunion dinner with their family
This is our Chinese tradition
means every family member come back and reunion
me and family went to eat our reunion dinner at a restaurant
one of the dish was roasted chicken

this chicken very special
because it can stand still on the plate! wow~
a chicken not only will lay on the plate
but also stand on the plate when serve
is like want to stand up and walk or dance! Hahahaha
sadly the chef chopped down it's head
if not it will be really a live chicken standing on the table! hohoho

The toys

when looking back to those past photos

I found this picture in my photo album

There are 3 characters but I only know one of them is Santa Claus

These toys are made from card paper

during the time I got that paper

I have an urge to throw it away 

Look in seriously, that paper can become a toy!

paper is not just for us to write and fold

it can be make toys and handicraft too

they are nice and cute 

people can take it to decorate our home or to keep it as toys collection

Apart from that, some people can give to their children 

so that they no need to buy extra toys for their children! 

It is so eco friendly =)

Money

is the end of the month
which is the time with empty pockets
because days come to the end
is also the time money spend till the end

money can be spend easily but cannot be earned easily
some people spend money like water
keep going out without counting
For me, I cant do the same thing because I have limited money
If the money can be photocopy and been used
then I surely can spend money like pouring water
spend as many as I want
but.....
this is IMPOSSIBLE to happen
this only can happen in my dream~

Human, complicated

Finally new semester starts
as usual, we have to  divide into groups for assignment purpose
working in a group is not easy
because different people has different opinion or thoughts
most of the people will stick to their group of people
with their own friends only
for those who always alone or small group of people
they have to join others group
sometime stick to own group doesn't mean can work very well with each other
human needs communication very very much
if the group member does not communicate with each other
then a lots of problem will appear
sometime may cause misunderstanding between people too
human is so complicated
because we have different identities play different characters

Welcome back, Uni Life!

3 weeks of holidays

really not enough for me to rest my mind

not only me, is totally not enough for all Utarians
but no choice, because we study at UTAR
people always says, university life is awesome
but I think school time is always awesome!
when I was primary, I will always remind of kindergarden
when I was secondary, I will miss primary school time
now I get on university, I miss my kindergarden, primary and secondary school so so much!
school life can be very colorful also can be dull
of course, we have to always be positive thinking
therefore, our life will be full of colors
make our life more interesting
Apart of that, our results also can pass with flying colours! haha~
welcome back, uni life!
Fighting~

唉!

Wow! 原来我有三个月没有写blog了 >.<
唉，这个学期很空闲
因为我只报读了两个科目
时间表变空闲了，人也变得懒惰了
我就是个好例子
不想浪费时间，想去工作可是又没有着落
偏偏就是星期五有科!
要不然我早就可以接很多临时工了
看到很多想买的东西，可是又不行
因为我没有钱
上个月，把电话弄坏了
修理也要花上六百块
唉！我以前连不到三百块的电话都不舍得买
可是现在却花了六百块在修理罢了
我最不喜欢就是欠别人人情或金钱
偏偏你又硬要出钱去修理
难道迟点修理不能的吗？
唉！越是没有钱，花的钱越是更多
天啊~ 你难道真的要这样作弄我吗？
有时候觉得，以前单身的生活很好过
因为自由自在的，虽然没有一个固定的人在你身边守护你
但是，不管做什么都没有人管你
也不需要看别人的脸色做人
在这里，虽然拥有的东西比以前多了
但是负担却更大了
以前以为反驳了爸爸意愿要我当护士
还以为可以自由地选择自己想要做的东西
谁知道？唉
现在我才20岁，但是过的生活不像20岁的女生
我以前最爱的羽球呢？ 我好久没有和它约会了
是我疏远它了，还是我不再喜欢打球了？
唉!
我还是一个小孩，但是偏偏要担任一个成人的角色
我现在过的，是我自己的生活吗？
以前喜欢和朋友大吵大闹的我？又去了哪里？
难道人就不能自私一点，只过自己想要的生活吗？
想说自己想说的话？
想做的事？
走自己想走的路？

失败中的失败

这个星期真是个让人喘不过气的一个星期
大学和大学预备班的分别真的很大
功课，人与人，环境， 还有很多很多
我在修着的科系是communication
很讽刺的，在我所面对的事情中
最大问题就是沟通
这一个学期的功课，是有史以来做到最差最不好的一次
所谓group assignment，讲究的就是teamwork
很抱歉，很内疚
因为我没有表现好
这次，也让我察觉到自己的实力到底有多少
自己也看到，别人和自己的差别在哪里
有人说：别拿别人来和自己比，因为人比人，会比死人
这句话也有它的道理所在
有时候适当的比较是对的
因为相比之下，能让自己知道自己的优点和弱点在哪里
有弱点就该乘机会去改进，增进自己
我是很需要人们提点与指导
很可惜的，在我身边却没几个
今天我向个朋友说明这个问题
他说得对，这一次做得不够好，就在下一次做得更好
人是要从错误中学习才会成长
我发现我和狗狗可以做好朋友
因为我也是要大便才来挖洞
这次真的是糟糕到不能再糟糕
我到底是在做什么

今天和朋友一起上课
看同学的presentation
到最后的视频打动了我
我的眼泪没有问过我的允许就冲了出来
能我让流泪的事物没有多少
最容易的就是我老爸
那个视频讲述一个聋哑的爸爸和唯一的女儿相依为命
为了女儿，不惜一切地付出
爸爸努力赚钱让女儿读书，不让宝贝女儿饿肚子
女儿生日时还准备了蛋糕帮她庆祝
但是女儿在学校被同学取笑爸爸是聋哑的
因为为爸爸打包不平，于是和同学起了争执
女儿在学校被同学欺负，都没有向爸爸埋怨
因为她不想让亲爱的爸爸受伤害
最后，她因为承受不到压力而选择了自杀
爸爸为了抢救女儿，愿意把自己的房子买出去
因为他只有这唯一的女儿，不能失去她
这段片深深打动了我
顿时让我想马上冲回家抱着爸爸嚎啕大哭
心里也出现另一个想法
内心告诉自己，我不能让爸爸失望
他为了让我有机会上大学
不顾一切， 不求回报地付出
也在我背后不断地支持我，鼓励我
这就是我给他的回报
我真的过份!
我很讨厌自己!
很恨自己!
爸爸对我的期望最高
但我却是让他最失望的孩子
对不起！:'(